Most Days...and then TODAY.

Most days, I am a pretty happy person. I would put myself in the "generally happy and often pleasant" category. I of course have off days, who doesn't? Generally, though, I can brush things off and smile about things. I've been through a ton in my past that has lead me to realize, though I can't always see it in the present, ALL things come together for the good and work of the Lord. Mysterious ways abound, so to speak. But today...is not one of those days.

Why is it that as a full-time mom, official nanny, self employed more than full time working business owner, head chef, head maid, chief photographer, grocer buyer, laundry doer and offical blogger of our little abode I feel like a failure on days like today? I feel so entirely overwhelmed with my job, overwhelmed with being a (relatively) new mom, overwhelmed with LIFE. Luckily, I am blessed to have the greatest mom and 2 aunts in the world and they are quick to remind me that all moms go through times like this. Everyone has days of inadequacies. It's okay to feel down, it's natural. I can't fix all the things that are bugging me. I can only fix the things I personally have control over and unfortunately that's not many of the things bugging me. Many situations have 2 people involved and it takes 2 people to make a change. (I am being very vague on purpose. Apologies.)

So what I can do, to try to lift my mood is write.

Allow me to present my "Ode to the Working Mom" to the tune of "Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head"

I can't stop the voices in my head
Telling me all the things I didn't get to today
Crying's not for me
No, I'm never gonna stop the voices by complaining

So I just toss in another load of clothes
Turn on the dishwasher and tuck the kids in to bed
Toys all over the floor oooohhh
Voices are calling, in my head they keep calling...

But there's one thing I know
Those chores they won't defeat me
I'll keep working
Until the sun itself rises to greet me!

Voices keep screaming in my mind
Didn't get the bills paid
Oh I wish I could unwind!
Garbage needs to go out

Those voices keep yelling in my head, they keep yelling
Yeah but those kids, they really love me.
It won't be long til happiness steps up to greet me....

I can't stop the voices in my head
Telling me all the things I didn't get to today
Crying's not for me
No, I'm never gonna stop the voices by complaining
Because I'm loved, nothing's worrying me...